When customers ask how my holidays are going, my honest response is... quiet. It's not that life isn't bustling with kids events, extra work days and general holiday business, but I can't help reflecting on the contrast between this year to last. Last year at this time my sweet mama was recently discharged from Grace Cottage Hospital after 3 months of intensive recovery from a major stroke she had on October 6th, 2013. To be honest, if you came into the shop last year at this time, you only saw the shell of me. We were still taking shifts of 24 hour care at her house to assist her every move and I simply couldn't wrap my head around what had happened to her and how different life was. Last holiday season, I didn't dare let myself hope that we would be where we are this year.
This year my sweet mama came to our Holiday Open House, dressed up, hair done, and ready to be part of the festivities. It is a Christmas miracle in the greatest way. She still has no words, but her gestures are becoming clearer and we're all pretty good at playing the ongoing game of charades with her when she has something to say. Mostly it's her big beautiful smile that assures us she is well, and there is nothing that fills my heart like seeing her smile.
So, this season? Quiet, still with the acute awareness of this tangible feeling of deep gratitude. Our little family survived something that felt too big to understand and for that, even knowing that this is just a moment in a long series of unpredictable moments, I breathe in this season with deep peace.
Wherever you are and whatever feelings are in your heart this season, I wish you deep peace and a quiet moment.